- So I have to wonder
- October 31st, 0:52
what has happened to me in the last 2 years? My essential me-ness has been crushed somehow. This is obvious by looking at the things i've posted to Facebook, where even over the preceding four or five years where my social life hasn't been anything much to speak of, there is at least an essential verve and that me-ness. I've lost something, and the only thing I can think of is I've gained a mortgage and an alcohol problem, and worse even than that, the requirement to cook meals for myself every day. I hate that!